Deborah​ K. Tash​​/White Wolf Woman

In Her Image Studio

A website of Visual Storytelling in Visionary and Spiritual Art Featuring Shamanic Art, Visionary Shamanic Art, Healing Shamanic Art, Spritual Shamanic Art and Jaguar Shamanic Art, as well as Goddess and Animal Totem Art, Mask, Spirit Guide and Sacred Sexuality.

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SAMPLE OF DESTROYED AND

STOLEN ART:

The Golden Mean Project/Table Commission  TASH c

ORIGINAL DESTROYED

The Shallows Series/Shallows X

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ORIGINAL STOLEN

Journal Sketches and Hidden Voices Series/She Dreams

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ORIGINAL STOLEN

          Masks Of The Gods Series/                          Poseidon

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ORIGINAL STOLEN


Masks Of The Gods Series/

Alien Mask

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ORIGINAL STOLEN


The Shallows Series/Vessel V

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ORIGINAL STOLEN

In Her Image Studio/Mestiza Dreaming...Thoughts On Art Destroyed And Stolen...

Deborah K. Tash/White Wolf Woman

18MAR21 - As I continue to clear trauma in co-counseling sessions I am finding that the loss of pieces of my art due to theft and destruction actually created trauma and grief that I am still feeling the effect of in my life.  Making art is such an intimate and challenging process.  It demands that the artist face that blank page; confronting internal struggles and feelings of insecurity in order to honestly express their inner landscape and be willing to expose that inner reality to public scrutiny.  So, it is like losing a part of oneself to have one's art destroyed or stolen. 


I awoke in the middle of the night last night in an anxiety attack that lasted for an hour.  It started because I was thinking of including the detail of The Golden Mean Project painting (the original was destroyed) that I have used to create prints in the past, here on my website and making future prints available on my Fine Art America site, as well.  It continued with feelings of grief about all of the art that was stolen from me in 2014 when I was using Public Storage to store my work.  I had three storage units at the time and two of them were vandalized, one twice.  The thieves literally kicked in the rolling metal doors and took many of my best works.  So, I am writing this as a way to be with the grief and anxiety which I have tried to ignore in the past. 


I painted the Golden Mean Project piece on a table as a commission several years ago.   The person who commissioned it, after a couple of years, spitefully decided to have the painting destroyed by having someone else paint over it.  Because of unrelated disagreements, I was not consulted or even told that it was being done.  I found out accidentally and was heartbroken by the incident. 


For all of you who read this who are also artists, you need to know that this was an illegal act.  If this happens to you there are laws against people vandalizing, deliberately damaging, destroying or altering your work even after purchase or paid commission.  I could have taken legal action against the persons involved but after researching the legal ramifications and considering the emotional costs it would entail, I decided that I was not willing to expend the energy and or get involved in the bad blood to pursue it.   Let Kharma take its toll.

The Golden Mean Project/DETAIL Table Commission TASH  c

Then there was the burglary.  The main unit that was broken into was set up so that all the art was boxed, labelled and with a picture on the front sitting on shelves for easy access when someone purchased a piece.   My suspicion was that the thieves looked through the metal mesh covering the top of the unit and saw what was stored in it.  That unit was the one that was broken into twice.   Public Storage never took any precautions even though I was not the only one who was robbed.  No video surveillance or anything else was ever put in place.  It was such a bummer. 


I had to find a new studio and get my things out of Public Storage which took a couple of years.  When I was offered a space in the basement of the herchurch building here in San Francisco, I was overjoyed.  I continue to make art and will work through any of the residual emotional trauma now that it is so evident. 


When it first happened, people asked me all the time if I knew who had done it.  They wanted to know so many things about who and why and when.  These were all questions I had no answers for myself.  One friend said that at least the thieves had good taste since they stole my art.  Sigh.  Not quite compensation enough.  Some folks suggested that I should remake all the pieces that were stolen.  Not something I would have the heart to do, especially since I want each piece I make to be original and individual.  In the long run I hope to resolve the feelings of loss and allow my new work to compensate for the losses.  I certainly won't stop making art and my hope is that as I alchemize the emotional fallout it will enrich my new work. 

That's me in a Selfie from 2020!  Keep On Trucking!


Totem Series/Mestiza Moon Shield I  2021    TASH c

Totem Series/Mestiza Moon Shield II 2021 TASH c

Totem Series/Mestiza Moon Shield III 2021 TASH c

Totem Series/Mestiza Moon Shield IV 2021 TASH c

   Totem Series/In The Shadow Of

            Childhood   TASH   c

In Her Image Studio/Mestiza Dreaming...Creating New Connections To My Heritage In My Art.

Deborah K. Tash/White Wolf Woman

16MAR21 - In the last three months I got a bit obsessed with the Mestiza Moon Shields and painted four of them.  Starting out with an image that I've carried with me for many years which translated into Totem Series/In The Shadow Of Childhood.   Since I haven't been to my studio for a while, I have been experimenting with watercolor pencils combined with pen and ink drawing, pencil and collage.  I love collage and continue to explore how to be even more creative with images both from magazines and that I print out.  There will be at least one more Mestiza Moon Shield for White Wolf and perhaps more after that.  I am just allowing the process of the Totem series to unfold and for guidance from my Muse and my spirit guides.  And looking forward to working in studio again with my mask paintings.


In other news, I entered submissions in two anthologies and one datebook; both visual art and poetry.  One of the anthologies for Write Now! Essential Truths: The Bay Area In Color accepted my poem, Bruja Halfbreed, and my mixed media watercolor painting, In The Shadow Of Childhood, in that publication.  I will be taking part in a reading of the poem at the San Francisco Public Library in June of this year!


I am also signing up for another round of Rafael Martinez's Art Transmission Course.  I originally took the course in 2017 with the intention of learning to convey sensuality and sexual energy in my painting.  The piece that I completed for the course was a stretch and I am not sure that it actually accomplished what I set out to do but I am still pleased with it as a start.  Titled, Awaken To The Goddess Series/She Is Here, it was a new level of working with painting and collage together.


Awaken To The Goddess Series/She Is Here  2017  TASH  c

I'm looking forward to this next month long course to explore the art for my graphic novel: The Gods In The Mirror/An Erotic Adventure Tale Of Spiritual Transformation.  You can read a preview of the writing for the graphic novel in Writing here on this website.  Because this is my first effort at illustrating a graphic novel, I have much to explore and learn about illustration, setup and creating a graphic novel format.  A real challenge!


Here is the poem that will be included in the anthology:


Bruja Halfbreed


I have never tried to pass for white

Submerged in the confusion of assimilation

As my mother impugned

“Don’t tell people you are Mexican!”

Her pride that people joked about me as a child

“Where’d you steal the big Swede from?”

Her black black hair in contrast

To my blonde blonde curls


Bruja Halfbreed


When Swedes and Norwegians spoke to me

Their language incomprehensible

I always explained my heritage

Claiming my otherness

Not like my mother who told people

She was Italian rather than Mexican

While demanding I learn Spanish

Because Abuela refused to speak English


Bruja Halfbreed


I never tried to pass for white

Though others assumed me to be

I coped by thinking myself incognito

But always spoke up to claim my heritage

Bearing the legacy of my mother’s self-hatred

In never feeling good enough

Not just because of polio and sexual abuse

But also because I always felt an outsider


Bruja Halfbreed


I searched for a way to answer my blood

The reverberations of the land calling

Echoing in the ways of the natives of the plains

And once again assumed to be a white woman

When I went to powwow and gatherings

Still I claimed myself Mestiza

Determined to claim all of my heritage

Regardless of blue eyes, fair skin, blonde hair


Bruja Halfbreed


Such a disappointment to my mother

Schooled in internalized racism

Purify the race by marrying a white man

While I longed to understand my blood

Dancing beneath the moon in a staghorn circle

Teasing her because my brother looked like Cochise

Refusing to fully assimilate and pass for white

Though others assumed I was


Bruja Halfbreed


Now I write at 2:30 in the dark of night

Unable to sleep because once again

I am accused of passing for white

And my soul demands I take note

To set the record straight

That I am a Bruja Halfbreed

And my blood roars in protest

To claim all that I am


10DEC20 TASH ©


In Her Image Studio/What Will 2021 Bring?  Mestiza Dreaming...

Deborah K. Tash/White Wolf Woman

05DEC20 - I hope this blog post finds you continuing to weather all the change and destabilization of our times to find renewal for your life.  I am looking forward to the coming great conjunction of Saturn and Jupiter in Aquarius that will occur at the end of December.  Many of the deeply challenging planetary positions and aspects of the last several months have ended and 2021 is predicted to be a time of beneficial beginnings.  I am encouraged by the election of Joe Biden and especially Kamala Harris, with an increase in awareness of the need for racial equality not only for Black Americans, Asian Americans, but also for indigenous Native Americans and an end to sexism, the end of the fires in Northern California, the production of a vaccine for Covid-19 and a general feeling of relief.  Admittedly there are still many challenging conditions in our country and worldwide, both around the pandemic and economic issues, but I continue to be hopeful for the spiritual   evolution of humanity as we move further into the Age Of Aquarius.


In my own personal journey I have been discovering more about my identity as an artist and a Mestiza.   I started doing research for a new painting titled, In The Shadow Of Childhood.  The piece will feature a blonde girl child holding a candle wearing a pink dress and white ruffled apron and dark brown orthopedic shoes with a leg brace attached to the right one.   I have been exploring how to deal with my continuing disability as a result of childhood polio in a series called the Leg Project, but it has been on hold with all of the SIP issues and not being in studio.  This piece will address more of my interactions with shadow aspects.  In the background to the right will be a Yaqui Indian inspired mask, possibly a Deer Dancer mask and on the left in the background will be a shrieking shadow of a black jaguar, not a black panther of Africa. 


I started looking for images of both black panthers roaring, and feeling guided, decided to look for images of Yaqui masks as well.  I didn't expect to find any as I was ignorant of Yaqui ritual culture.  Imagine my surprise when I found hundreds of images including Deer Dancer mask images during my internet search!  Because I was raised to be assimilated with an inculcation of internalized racism (which I have only recently begun to fully uncover and deal with) I had no idea of the richness of this part of my heritage.  My mother carried her internalized racism out front; telling me as a child that she was taught to "purify" the race by marrying someone of European descent.  My father (with his English, Irish, Scots ancestry) and I were the only people in our families with blonde hair and blue eyes.  She warned me not to tell people I was Mexican.  And, she was openly racist about Native Americans either from the US or Mexico. 


My internet research uncovered some startling information.  The proud Yaqui heritage of that indigenous native people who populated the land named Sonora and parts of Durango in Mexico has opened new questions for me about my identity.  The legacy of mask making sheds light on my work as a mask maker.  And are these people possibly my ancestors?  My grandparents both looked like images of the Yaqui I was finding in my online search.  My maternal grandparents were from Mexico; my abuela from Sonora and my abuelo from Durango.


I will definitely be doing more research into all this, working with my guides for deeper understanding and allowing my art to be even more of a blend of my dual heritage of Celtic and Yaqui influence.  I look forward to getting a 23 AND ME ancestry test in the near future.  And I plan on rereading all of the Carlos Castaneda books which have sat on my shelf for nearly forty years. 


I still haven't been to the In Her Image Studio/Art Grotto in quite a while, due mostly to the state of my back and legs, but plan on returning in the near future.  I have continued with my daily writing practice and have become a member of a writer's group called The Writer's Life having just submitted poems and art for the upcoming Spring anthology for the group.  I also continue to be a member of  Story At Home; reading both stories and poetry.  I have been loving continuing to be part of the community as we meet bi-monthly on Thursday evenings via Zoom.  And I look forward to continuing to participate in the Zoom meetings of Sacred Grounds more regularly as a forum for reading my poetry, as well.


I am continuing to make art and work on getting my books published. Harvesting The Moon is now available on Amazon.com!   The fourth book, Soft Power/Reclaiming The Sacred Cunt Project, is on my publishers work bench and hopefully will be out and available in the near future.  I'm excited to share the Soft Power book with the world! Soon, so stay tuned!  Here is a new poem for today:


Daughter Of A Deer Hunter


The jaguar’s purr stirs in my blood

I feel the incendiary nature of my cells

In their dance of mingling biologies

Spirits of Celtic warriors and Yaqui ancestors

Shamans of conquered lands

Across oceans and distances

Whisper secrets in my mixed heritage

Defining my otherness for me

Giving me the missing parts

To solve the puzzle of my identity

Because I had no other guidance

Isolated in a family of insanity without adults

After my father had gone


05DEC20 TASH ©


Now that www.inherimagestudio is published and online, I am loving this fresh start.


Thank you for your support and reading my blog. I hope you are finding solace and creativity in your life during these transitional times!


                            Illuminated Poems Series/Mestiza Dreaming  TASH  c

In Her Image Studio/Productive In The Midst Of Crisis In 2020

Deborah K. Tash/White Wolf Woman

22OCT20 - I hope this blog post finds you weathering all the crazy of our times. I had to have a tooth pulled recently and the day of the surgery was the day of the orange/red sky! Boy, wasn't that a day like out of an apocalyptic dystopian science fiction novel?! I could hardly believe my eyes sitting outside of the UCSF Dental Clinic after the surgery waiting for a friend who was giving me a ride home.


I still haven't been to the In Her Image Studio/Art Grotto in quite a while, due mostly to the state of my back and legs, but plan on returning in the near future. This week I wrote a five minute erotica short story titled, Into The Dark, which I read for Thursday's Story At Home. I have been loving continuing to be part of the community as we meet bi-monthly on Thursday evenings via Zoom and participating in the Zoom meetings of Sacred Grounds has given me a regular forum for reading my poetry.


I am continuing to make art and work on getting my books published. My publisher is almost done with the work on the third book, Harvesting The Moon. I have also written another essay to add in to the fourth book, Soft Power/Reclaiming The Sacred Cunt Project, which will also have a new poem and painting, as well. I'm excited to share the Soft Power book with the world! Soon, so stay tuned!


I am working on this website and hope to publish it in the very near future for In Her Image Studio.  A fresh start.


Thank you for your support and reading my blog. I hope you are finding solace and creativity in your life during these bizarre times!

Here is a new collage piece completed recently:

For more new work go to NEW WORK in the GALLERY.

             Illuminated Poems Series/Out Of The Rubble  22AUG20  TASH  c

After Curating The March 1, 2020

ARISE GALLERY SHOW

Deborah K. Tash/White Wolf Woman


08MAY20 - Hello, hello, hello from Sheltered In Place land, San Francisco! The show at ARISE GALLERY on Sunday, March 1st which I curated for Elaine Chan Scherer was the last show at the gallery before the Shelter In Place took effect.  It has been many weeks now since I was last in my studio at herchurch, not only because of the SIP but also because I didn't want to be the only one in that huge building while Stacy was on vacation in Africa. Once she finally got back home after a bit of a perilous journey with threats of quarantine etc. I realized that I still needed to limit the amount of stair climbing I was doing until I could get back to regular weekly therapy sessions for my back and legs. Going to the studio requires going up and down five flights of stairs total twice for each visit, so I am being self-nurturing instead. I look forward to returning to the drawing board and painting easel in the near future.


In the meantime, after working on it for 14 years, I have finally finished writing the story of my graphic novel, The Gods In The Mirror/An Erotic Adventure Tale Of Spiritual Transformation and am working on editing and tightening up the writing in preparation for beginning the drawings and "comic book" cells and illustration when I do return to the studio. It has been quite an odyssey learning how to move a graphic novel story forward without using violence which is a standard way to move plots forward in comic books! I got stuck several times and had to put the writing aside until I could figure out the plot development. Instead of violence I used erotica. I wrote in restaurants and in the last couple of years did a lot of the writing sitting in ARISE GALLERY waiting for patrons to arrive. The silver lining of SIP for me has been the time to first mellow out and then get to the projects that I haven't had the time and focus to complete! I have a select group of friends reading the galley proof and am waiting to hear back from them all for feedback. So far, it's been very well received.

              The Gods In The Mirror/Monolith Study 04APR14   TASH  c

The other exciting news is that when I was working with my friend and IT guy, David, to take care of the formatting of the finished writing for the graphic novel, he told me that he and his wife have a publishing company now...Fumbled Book Press...and that they could publish my books. We came up with a plan and so far, Inspired By The Tides is now a published coffee table book and for sale on Amazon.com.


I have had a dream of having all of my chapbooks, which I have compiled for several years and saved in my files, all published and available on Amazon.com. I have always loved going there and finding groups of books by one author all available and lined up by covers, so I am especially pleased to be in the process now of setting up each of mine as art books, coffee table books and books of poetry. The process is both engaging and creative. I had no idea setting up a book and then working with a publisher could be so much fun.


With encouragement from friends, I made the second book from Voice Of The Poet In Troubled Times postings on my monthly newsletter with added photos and poems.  The third book, Harvesting The Moon is in the process of being published.  It is an expansion of one of the first chapbooks I made in the mid-2000s.  Then on to the fourth book: Soft Power/Reclaiming The Sacred Cunt Project which will have my story, a new essay, poem and painting with other expanded art and poetry, as well.  Fifth is Journal Sketches And Hidden Voices. Which as it turns out is a very large coffee table book with sixty plus pages. I am currently working on another art book for Illuminated Poems; number six, then on to the poetry books. All will be published in due time, so stay tuned!


What's New At In Her Image Studio?  Gearing Up For 2020!

Deborah K. Tash/White Wolf Woman

15DEC19 – Sun in Sagittarius/Moon in Leo – Sunday

Most of my writing about In Her Image Studio for the past almost two years has been shown in my MailChimp newsletter emails, but for those of you who are not in that database, I am going to start writing again here, as well. I have many balls in the air these days!

My show, Soft Power/Reclaiming The Sacred Cunt Project, is still exhibiting at ARISE GALLERY with an extended date ’til January 12, 2020. Oh, my Goddess! 2020 is just around the corner! While that is available I continue to work on Spirit Voices Of Light/Totem Animal Allies project and have only nine masks left to pull out of the forty that are part of the project. I was planning to not start the actual mask paintings until after all of the masks were pulled, but I just had to start with BUTTERFLY.

I spent three months making photocopies of butterflies for the Soft Power Series/The Opening #5 Monarch Prayer, cutting each one out as I made prayers for the Monarch butterflies and ended up with several extra ones after the piece was completed. So, I just had to start with the BUTTERFLY mixed media mask painting. The mask was pulled from Colleen Rosby’s face.

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Here is the poem that began the process for the Totem BUTTERFLY:


Ally Of The Dreamtime VI


Playing with the breeze

Your fragile wings dance

Fluttering without a sound

Ephemeral loveliness manifest after ordeal

You harbinger of blossoms and spring

Alighting for the briefest moment

On leaf or bud to suckle

Sweet nectar your due

You mimic the wings of faeries

Reminder of grace and whimsy

After a season held captive

In a cocoon of transformation

Melted down to your essential need to fly

Your tribe gathers

Covering whole walls

In a swarm of desire

Sweet wingéd messenger

You are not just a simple pleasure

Meant to delight and entertain

Pretty and meaningless

No, not you my guide

You are a gentle beacon of beauty

A reminder of strength in adversity

And the everlasting truth of the soul


29NOV14 TASH ©

The Spirit Voices Of Light/Totem Animal Allies Project began with forty of my poems dedicated to forty totem animals and expanded into a community project working with the faces of volunteers who choose a totem animal ally from one of the forty.  I then lead each volunteer on a Shamanic journey to meet the totem animal of their choice.  Using plaster impregnated gauze to create a mask.

Once the mask is prepared, I attach it to a 2'x2' stretched canvas and begin the process of painting, collaging or adding other details to create a piece of art honoring the chosen totem animal ally.  BEAR was the first and prototype for these pieces and BUTTERFLY was completed just before the start of the pandemic which has put the project on hold since March, 2020.  Hopefully, the project will resume in the near future.
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